Couldn't sleep

I've been up since 5:30 am. I should go for a run or something. Did some Yoga instead. I'm excited about going home, still upset about certain love life developments, still got a lot on my mind. There is something else biting at me that and I haven't been able to put it in writing yet or sufficiently expressed just yet. Maybe it's my boredom. I'm hungry for something. I'm waiting, but maybe I should be proactive in this process and tell whatever barriers I feel holding me back to fuck off, which is probably just myself. haha.. So there you have it. IS that like masturbating when you tell yourself to fuck off?