Sunday, January 15, 2006

A loss

I watched scenes from Dances With Wolves this afternoon before I went to the gym and kinda wished I was a Sioux Native American. It's a culture centered around family and love while here I am in a world where your value is based upon your productivity. And even your productivity is limited to regional cultural values of the corporate culture and what the state considers a productive citizen (which is, of course, subject to personal biases and political value).

Anyway, the other issue I have been dealing with is isolation. Perhaps I'm just getting old. I like dinners with friends, movies, exhibits, etc, but don't you think the bar scene is a bit ridiculous? We all sit there meeting friends of perhaps friends and paying way too much for drinks while dancing to bad white anthems and all the while dealing with overly drunk guys in blue striped shirts who want to pick a fight with you because you said 'excuse me,' while on your way to the bathroom (well, and his girlfriend winked at you and you winked back).

And so the Patriots lost tonight and I'm a bit devestated. It's been a long ass week. I will now rant for a bit:

Attorney 1: Please stop walking around like a moping dog. It's like a guillotine is about to drop on you and all the while you walk with the shadow of death on your shoulder. I wished it would have dropped already so you wouldn't be so mobile.

Attorney 2: Make a damn decision yourself for once w/o having to consult partner 1 and then partner 2 for approval of a FAX. Yes, I said a FAX. And if you had followed my reccomendations 3 days ago, everything would have been fine. Yes, You can tell me I was right and you were wrong next week..and you are fat.

Financial printers: You all are worthless pieces of trash who pay no attention to detail and make my life a horrible living mess. ANd I'm glad the Redskins lost!

I guess that is what you become after spending so many hours at work this week. It's not like I mind so much as I wish there was something to balance it off. I really don't have a reason to get out of the office early. I don't have a reason to get out of the gym earlier. What I do, I set up for myself. It's very independent and also very lonely, but there are some doors we must walk through a lone, right?


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